Last night nightmare

So, three problems.
One. Joy danced and kissed some dude, and im jealous as CRAP. You see,  never got to really dance with her before.
Two. I realized Joy was actually happy. And now... idk i just can't keep chasing her. Shes HAPPY. thats what i want for her.
Three. I was around Bateman all night <3 god i was happy. Except these guys kept asking me to grind and i was like 'hmmmmm im gay, so unless youve go a chick for me, no.' and i laughed as tey had hurt faces and walked away xD
Chaney was going to ACTUALLY dance with me and grind or whatever she had planned but i lost her in the monster sized mosh pit xD
But I actually had a nightmare last night.
So i woke up in some house i didnt know, and i was empty, i started flippin out because on the wall there were pictures of everyone ive cared for at some point. 'Heated feelings' so to say. and they were in order, of who i liked to the most recent. And each picture was amazing, just saying, like they were pretty.
So from Kare bear to Annabell.
And then the door bell rang, i answered it of course, and it was some tall strongly built guy all dressed up, which if i was attracted to dudes, he was very good looking.
And he startd crying like WTF man.
and i was like'Can i help you?'
'youre alive...' he cried
i was all, yeaaaahhh? like Who the fuck said i died? Im only fuckin' fourteen almost fifteen.
so i brought him inside and the whole house changed, everything changed.
I was older, maybe like 45 or so, and the house was different and smelt like cookies <3 i enjoy cookies <3 but the man stayed the same.
And i started talking to him, and it was about why he was here and why he thought i had been dead.
he said this 'because, Mom thought you died when you randomly disappeared.'
MOM?
'Who?' I asked politely, bringing him some water.
'Sydney Rutz? your wife?'
Omg my head went spinning.
i was all since when was i married and 45 and whyyyyyyyyyy?

So maybe I'll marry Sydeny lmao who knows but im all 'Kid, mine, sydney, wtf, confused, whyyyyyy.'
lol
but now im down to two girls.
Bateman
and
Kare.
im dating Kare but idk if i want to be back with her. We had a lot of issues me and her...
so lets see how it goes :)

The darkness is your pet now? what the hell...