And oh, how she loves me so... But i dont love her

I know how she feels now.
But i know how Kare feels too...
And i feel like shit all together.
Im her nothing.
kare is my nothing.
Shes my world.
I'm kares world.
but saddly, this empty hole just keeps growing and growing and soon i'll just be the empty shell im supposed to be.
And once i get to that empty state. Life will seem like such a burden. Like it used to when i used to hurt myself because i though i was my own problem. Want to know something?
I am my own Problem.
So many people would be happy or happier if i wasnt here.
Bateman wouldnt have the weight of me loving her on her shoulders.
Allard would've never been hurt by me before, never wouldve wasted her time.
Joy... Joy would be perfect, untainted.
Kare would be happy being with someone that loves her.
And i, i would be happy and stress free.
I wouldnt be here.
there would be some empty spaces maybe. but not too big that you guys wouldnt be able to live without me.

I'm so sorry ive done all of this. to all of you.

I wish i could go home. I don't have a home...